Pretty good

Yesterday was the first time I've been home before 7pm in about a week. I feel much more alive. I'm feeling so much better. I feel really level, not really happy or sad, but level. I'm told that is a good thing.

Yesterday Asa did great on the potty. He went pee pee 3 times after I got home from work, and no messes. He did ask me to put a diaper on him when he was ready to poo. We both sat on the pottys, I read books, I gave him his dancing bear, and we just chilled for about 15 minutes, hoping I wouldn't need the diaper. He told me he REALLY needed a diaper, and I didn't push it. As soon as the diaper went on, he poo'd. He tells me that he is scared, but I feel it's going he's going to be ready, when he's ready. I'm not going to push anymore. He does get a chocolate every 3 times he pees. Well, I suppose everyone's done hearing about poo and pee.

Sissy and I are doing great with mom and papa being gone. I did have a bit of anxiety yesterday afternoon. Maybe it was because I didn't have my Valentina fix. I bit of Lorazepam nipped that in the bud.

Asa and I are doing Valentines together. After about 15 minutes of Asa writing his name on Valentines, he told me he was "tired of writing my name mum". He is so good. He can' almost write his name with no help. He does the A's perfectly, just needs help on S's. Not so bad since he only has 3 letters in his name:)

He is obsessed with fighter planes right now. F/A 18's. He asks me questions about them constantly, and I have no clue what he is talking about, or how he knows the trivia he DOES know. I feel pretty dumb. He asks me a question, for instance, "how big is the gas tank on an F18?" I guess. He then corrects me. WHY DOES HE ASK ME IN THE FIRST PLACE. Typical male.

For anyone that cares. TV that I'm enjoying at the moment. Anyone else enjoying these as well?

Paradise Hotel-Just started on Monday night. It's trash, but I'm addicted. Who doesn't like whores and man whores?

Nip/Tuck-Best drama on tv, but it's getting alittle bit graphic and disturbing. Anyone agree?

Survivor-Starts tomorrow. I feel like I'm going to be dissapointed with the Fan's vs. Fav's. I'll keep you updated, since you all are waiting for my response.

LOST!!- Sissy got me to watch it this season. I missed the entire last season, and so glad that I'm watching again. It's the fasted hour on tv.

ANYTHING ON BRAVO-Make me a supermodel, Project Runway, Top Chef.

FINALLY, GH- I'm addicted. I tell Josh about it everynight. He tells me I'm crazy, and I should stop watching my "friends" on GH. They are rotting my brain. It's pretty sad, Asa know the characters on GH. That's the only show he can watch with me, other than Survivor now. When Big Brother was on last summer, he know all of their characters too. Josh was angry with me that I let him watch that, it's not age appropriate. I told him anything is age appropriate if it's on at 8pm.

Apparently, Tv is on my brain today.