Better

Asa and I are doing much better today, with the exception of Asa's runny nose.

Yesterday, Asa and I spent the afternoon at Sissy's AGAIN!! She is so sweet to us. It was a beautiful day, warmest so far. It really felt like spring. I cleaned up a few chairs, and we lit up the outdoor firepit that they have. It was so cool. We had VALENTINA!! I remember last spring and summer, just feeling like there was void, and missing Valentina so much. Thinking how much better it would be when she was home. It was heaven for me yesterday, watching Asa play in the pond, snot all over his face, getting wet, and me constantly telling him to be careful and not to get wet....Valentina all bundled up, pulling her in the wagon (I'm so sore today in my arms and legs from running and pulling my kiddos) and just watching them play together. All is good in the world as far as I'm concerned.

Josh is sick now. ughhhh. Men being sick SUCKS! I have to go home after work and baby him now.

Tonight is good tv, looking forward to watching my trash. Big Brother last nice kicked ass. So entertaining.

I'm so glad to be feeling better physically and emotionally. Still had a panic attack last night. I thought the night before it had been brought on by me drinking a cola late in the afternoon, but I had another one last night, so that's not what triggered it. I'm keeping a diary of my daily activities, to see what I can do to stop these. Overall though, not feeling manic or sad, actually feeling happy. I think this nice sunshiny weather helps.