What A Ride

A week ago I had started school, was loving it so much. I was thinking how fast the summer was going to go and final exams would be finished and then our baby would be born soon after. What a difference 1 day makes.

Sunday night I went to the emergency room after having some severe pains in my left shoulder, and have also had some pain when I breath. The Dr. was unable to do an X-Ray since I am pregnant, so a CT scan was done of my chest area. That showed some liver tumors and some enlarged lymph nodes. I was devastated. I knew I was going to die. Sunday was a pretty depressing day and I pretty much thought my world was going to end.

Monday I was on the phone early and was able to either see or talk to my doctors directly. They seemed optimistic after reading the CT report from the previous day. My whole family and I were also feeling optimistic. Tuesday, I had an MRI and that showed that it indeed was liver cancer, but not sure from where or what. I was prepared, but Mom and Sissy were not. They were sure I was healed, but after talking to my surgeon that afternoon, we found it it is treatable and I'm not going to die, so I am healed. Yesterday, I had a CT scan and ultra sound and after talking to the radiologist, it appears as if the cancer is from my breast cancer. That is good news, since it is easier to treat.

Today at 1pm I am having an ultra sound guided biopsy of my liver. I am feeling optimistic and just happy to be getting it done with. I won't know the results until Monday. I just want to start treatment ASAP so I can get this disgusting cancer out of my body. I have been in constant pain in my left side and the pain med's make my stomach even more upset, along with the morning sickness, so I'm just having to deal with it, but the pain gives me a constant reminder that I have growing cancerous tumors in my body.

I saw my OB yesterday and was able to hear the heartbeat of our 11 week old fetus. I was so scared of terminating the pregnancy if needed and it has weighed more on me than knowing I have cancer. After talking with my doctor and hearing the heartbeat, I am more prepared. Sounds weird I know, but I know that my life is the most important and I will know more after talking with the oncologist. It will truly be a miracle if we are able to keep the baby and that is my hope and prayer. I have my perfect Asa and I thank God every time I look at him.

I am doing OK, but have bouts of tearing up, which I think is pretty good. I am not looking forward to treatment, but want to get it over with.

I had to withdraw from school, but have hopes to start again when this is all over. I LOVED it!

Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers. I have read the comments from Sissy's blog over and over and they make me smile. I believe in the power of prayer and know that I am going to be OK. I have to be for my family.

I have liver cancer. Sissy and I giggle every time I say that. It's just so unbelievable to me, that it just sounds so absurd. It's like saying I'm the Queen of England.

I am so thankful for my family and my husband and my son. Joshua is always a source of comedic relief and Asa will give me a thumbs up every so often. Asa knows that I'm sick, but he has had to bear with me through a lot of illness before and to him, and to him this is no different than me having a migraine or morning sickness. I have a tough strong family.

Thank you again for all of your prayers and thoughts and I appreciate all of you very much. I love my cyber family :)