What to say

A dear friend of mine just lost her daddy 2 days ago. It's very emotional writing this right now. Julia has been an inspiration to me in so many ways. I can only imagine how her heart must be aching. I really want to be like her when I grow up. She is strong and has incredible faith in God, and I know that she will make it through this. I'm so sad for her and her family and losing such a dear husband, daddy and grand daddy. Please put her on your prayer list or say good thoughts for her and her family. My heart is just aching for JuJu.

All this said, it brings up feelings of my grandma dying earlier in the summer. I think of her often and still cry from time to time, but with this tragedy happening, it starts all over again. I'm feeling the physical heart ache again. I'm so sad that my mom will not have her mother for the holiday's this year. She and papa are orphans with no parents living any longer. They are now in charge we have to learn from them all that we can. Oh how I wish that we could live together forever. Let's not take our loves for granted.

My heart is feeling sad, but I'm trying to think of some funny stories to share from our weekend to lighten up my spirit. Here goes.

Sunday afternoon, Joshua and I prettied up and went to a house party. Mom watched Asa so we could go to an adult party. Josh had instructed me to NOT talk about Asa. This is his friend from Seattle who has moved to Portland and he and his friends don't have children. I was told by Joshua that they would have no interest in my "funny"stories of Asa and Valentina. I don't know if any of you feel this way, but Asa is kind of my security blanket in social gatherings. He's what I talk about, he's what I look at and he's my friend. Without him, I feel a little bit lost, discombobulated and don't have as much confidence. The party was fine, but boy did I feel like a fish out of water. We were ready to leave around 8:30PM and our friend was surprised that we hadn't planned to go out bar hopping starting at 11pm. WHAT? 11PM? are you KIDDING ME? As Jilli would say, "OH LORD"! I could barely keep my eyes open and it was 8:30PM. We had a fun time together and when we have some alone time, we remember why we fell in love each other from the beginning. Right before leaving the party, Joshua's friend said that next time we visit, to bring Asa. YIPPEE!! Now THAT will be a party.

I am working full days this week, to cover for my co-worker who is on vacation. It's pretty painful. I'm sure watching Asa full days for Mom and Sissy is no walk in the park either. I do appreciate them doing it for me so a shout out to you both! Last night, mom made dinner for all of us. She wanted to make sure that we would have full tummies since it was soccer practice night and I wouldn't have had time to cook before hand. She made Steak Mexicana with Mexican rice. DEEEE-licious. The best ever. Sitting at Sissy's table last night with all of us hanging out and eating and drinking, some of us wandering from room to room, and kids just roaming around, willy nilly, between the squeals of " BOBBI BOBBI" and Asa shooting his obnoxiously loud Star Wars blaster....I felt like so content. My family is together.